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Valorant has ruined my life

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X_ae_A_12

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https://www.reddit.com/r/VALORANT/comments/wqg7w5/valorant_has_ruined_my_life/

DAT IS CRAZYYYY

I was by no means a perfect student but now I have no higher education, at best I have 2 years of failed university. As soon as I signed up to the valorant beta on twitch, I had no idea what i was getting into. Quarantine was time to kill, 4 months before my first year at university started, I thought to myself, “ it’s only a few months, I can just try this new FPS game out, and be done with it. “ oh how I was so wrong. I blamed almost 7 hours a day, back then, I had no track of time, time was precious, but to me, it was like a few pennies down the drain. I was desperate to finish the beta battle pass, to get the sought after beta gun buddy. Who the fuck cares about a ingame souvenir right? But not me. I was dedicated. I got it. And it was possibly the worst decision I had ever made. The beta ended, time to chill? No. The hype consumed me, I was eager to play on the first release of valorant, some would say I was addicted. Video games at that point had taken over my life. At the time, I didn’t know how bad it was, how difficult it would be to detach myself, since I would binge the fuck out of casual games of csgo when I was in high school. You could blame quarantine and self isolation, but here, no one else is to blame but me. Anyway, I continued down the spiral, down the rabbit hole, consooming hiko/TenZ streams, consooming sova lineups from dafran and sinatraa. Consooming everything about valorant. I eat slept and breathed this disgusting plague. My parents didn’t care. We weren’t close at the time, they just left me to my instruments, since I was doing the same things I was doing back in HS (not America). The date of my online classes starting grew closer and closer. I was cruisin’. Not a care in the world, I was still engrossed valorant, I thought I could go pro or something, I was a fucking plat scrub(now imm2 but who cares tho(apparently me)). The day of my online classes came, my sleep schedule fucked, I was still watching TenZfrom the previous day (since he streams till late (5am )in my time zone). Still, I had no idea how much this quarantine bullshit had affected me, truly. I mean I was a fucking nerd, an introvert who stayed at home playing video games all day since long before. I had no idea the toll it had taken on me. In my zoom video class, they asked me to speak, to introduce myself, a hoarse weak rasp came out, I mean I didn’t talk to anyone what the fuck did I expect (no commer btw). At that moment, I felt an impending sense of doom right there. Right then I realised what had happened. The series of events, they just flew past me, I felt nauseous, like I was physically spiralling down into a drain. I held my head in my arms, I thought to myself, do I have some fucking social anxiety LET ME FUCKING SPEAK PROPERLY. from that moment onwards, I didn’t attend a single class from September till june, I stayed in my room, my parents had no care in the world, I fucking lied to them about everything. About the tests, the exams . Everything. Yet they were still paying college. The guilt. I mean, they’re my caregivers, and I simply had no care in the world yet I still felt guilt.I don’t know why did that. Why couldn’t I just tell them from day one? Ehy didn’t I reach out? Why didn’t I ask for mental help. No idea. I had no idea the damage that I had created for myself. It could all have been avoided so simply. Still to this day I haven’t told them. I just said I ‘failed’ they don’t know I didn’t attend a single class, a single lecture, a single assignment. Nothing. Just fucking playing vslorant all day till 3 am. Still didn’t reach out for help btw because I’m chill like that 😎. The only reason I’m typing this, is because I want to be free of the guilt, the guilt of not tell anyone. That is the main reason. So it’s out there. So someone can see what it’s like to be the dumbest human on the planet.

#2
queueK
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99% of valorant players quit before they make it big

#3
X_ae_A_12
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Brotha, he can’t even comm 💀💀

#6
queueK
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99% of mute people quiet before they speak

#4
ilovefrozenblueberries
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More like 99.99%

#5
meyournightmare
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i will quit after champions to touch grass

#26
leleuu
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I said the same about masters...

#7
number1_ScreaM_fan
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how tf can you play valorant for more than 3 hours at a time. i just feel mentally exhausted at that point

#10
Pumsyslayer
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This.

#21
VAL_OMEGALUL_RANT
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same after 2 games I don't feel like playing anymore, maybe max 3 but no more than that

#23
elayaCL
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When i was playing, with 2 matches i was already burnout lol, maybe i'm too old.

#29
alwayscorrect
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how old are you?

#33
number1_ScreaM_fan
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16

#34
alwayscorrect
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wtf i guess you are just not made for games

#35
number1_ScreaM_fan
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probably i guess

#8
enri
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If this dude spent this time on game he should have godlike aim bruh

#11
imperfecto
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There's literally levels 300 or something that are bronze . Some may be iro

#13
enri
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If i play 7 hours a day i better be competitive player
I can't even stand 2-3 games in a row how people even manage to play this long

#9
spookmeister
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aight thats it im not playing more than 1 game of valorant a day after reading that

#12
imperfecto
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If it's not a joke . It seems like he has an addictive personality. Meaning once he gets valorant out of his system he will continue doing the same thing with other stuff because he has an addictive personality

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hisamzphyr
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I agree I was horrendously addicted to video games when I was in uni, I went to a really competitive school and it heavily affected my performance. I ended up having to take 3 extra semesters because I felt so unmotivated all I did was smoke, hang out with friends, work my shitty part time job and play cs. Nothing productive at all. It took me a while to get over it and I can relate to you, my attention span for valuable things slumped and the only thing I would do consistently was go to the gym, where I actually felt good for 2 hours a day. Its an easy hole to dig yourself into and a tough one to climb out of, but recognition of it is a huge start. What got me back on track was the reality when it hit me, my school graded by curve and I was never anywhere near the top, my relationship with my (now) ex was deteriorating, my parents kept nagging me about my bachelors, and I felt like I would be stuck in this phase forever. Honestly the best thing to do is take a decent break from the game and reset your dopamine receptors. Seek therapy, put yourself in social situations where you would normally feel uncomfortable until you do become comfortable, and do things you KNOW are good for you. It won't feel the same as playing video games at first, but touching grass is the best thing a someone like u can do. As you develop habits you will start to enjoy them more and get that same dopamine rush doing those things as you did when you played valorant. Its really tough because those habits are really ingrained in you but you have to push through it. Legit my advice is drop the game and touch grass, unironically. Video game addiction is a very real problem that is overlooked, so don't feel like a piece of shit. I bet a bunch of people on this forum have it too. Keep ur head up hackninja.

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fLORYwIs
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W post if real

#15
Glycoroldas
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knew a dude who failed high school for a SA:MP roleplay server

addiction is not a joke

#19
X_ae_A_12
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No way SAN ANDREAS WTF THAT IS ANCIENT

#27
Glycoroldas
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I'm a mid 20s boomer

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lucentx
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Bro, I just want to say (even if its cliche and annoying) that I know how you feel. I was really addicted during beta, since valorant was my FIRST computer game, really. I was so consumed, and I wasted a lot of my school life. But I finally got over it!! There’s hope at the end, you’ve never ruined ur life truly until you’re dead. Call upon ur friends or families, keep yourselves accountable. Then you’ll finally find rest from regret and guilt!

#17
BoF7ooM
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You're goated for copy pasting it. It got deleted in the subreddit

#25
X_ae_A_12
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damn i didnt know they deleted it

#30
alwayscorrect
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why did they delete it?

#18
Pope
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If you're that prone to addiction and have this little self control valorant could've never existed and you would find something else to fuck your life up with

#20
Rexx
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SEX

#22
nutab1e
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the fact that I can relate to this is sad

#24
geometrix
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holy shit this is really sad.

I'm inspired to waste less time online. thank you.

#28
V0sotros
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maybe this is just my zoomer mindset but how tf do you even do a single task for 7 hours straight, I get headaches from playing like 3 matches of valorant I gotta keep doing different things or I get bored out of my mind

#31
alwayscorrect
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nah its normal with playing video games

#32
X_ae_A_12
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especially if u got streams open

#36
tenz_is_daddy
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How do people get this addicted? Self control isnt hard

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