Hello! I am Elisabeth and I am diagnosed with OCD, major depressive disorder, anxiety disorder, panic disorder and agoraphobia. Basically, been dealing with this since I was a teenager lol
This is going to sound weird, but leaning into primary instincts of comfort always. For me when I was at my worst, that was a very specific cat youtube channel and critical role. Now when I'm struggling I look for lore videos of my favorite games. Everything on DND and just relax as much as I can.
Recently, for me, getting out and playing at my MTG locals has been super fulfilling and great! Finding a local thing like that for you I think would help.
I think also realizing that you don't have to have every day be the MOST SUPER FANTASTIC AWESOME DAY EVER helps. Like, just getting through it is such a win.
If you're able, medicine and someone to talk to are lifesavers. They were for me.
Even if it's just for five minutes, going outside and feeling the sun on your face can absolutely reset things. If I can't go outside, stretching, massaging and progressive muscle relaxation are all things I like.
I would recommend mindfulness and meditation because other people do, but it has never worked for me (ADHD) -- if its something that works for you, do it!
ALSO, ABOVE ALL, you NEVER have to have it all figured out right this second. Life is dynamic. You are dynamic. What I wanted last year is not what I wanted for myself this year.
Above all: solidarity. I had plans to take my life in 2021 and ever since then I have made every day for my mental health always because I refuse to go back to that darkness. I believe in you and I am so excited for your healing.