i have a 4.8 weighted in one of the most challenging hs in America. and here I am, still on vlr, still struggling, and still finding my groove. just know that you're not alone, and being desperate enough to seek for validation-motivation (what you're doing right now) is a step in the right direction, but not a good step. if you think others cheering you on gives you the most validation, try having your friends holding you accountable.
if you are a d1 procrastinator that produces diamonds under pressure, trick your brain into thinking that certain due dates are due x hours/days earlier, so you give it your all right before the date approaches. its a good method for you to edit if you screwed up while rushing with some leeway, and still lock in for an extended period of time. only way I think it might be ineffective is if you realize that, "hey, why am I rushing this? realistically, I can procrastinate for a couple more hours instead of doing this strategy" and that's only if you break the illusion of you needing to finish before the deadline you set