Already go to the gym every to every other day lil bro...

ngl I have no idea, what im looking at in that link.

From personal experience, im basically unable to not take the game seriously, when I play comp, since for me thats kinda the whole point of competetive. To take the game seriously and reach an high of a rank as possible.

I've had lots of games recently where I just give up mentally, like I still play, but just worse then I usually do, I dont think about plays before I make them, I just run in hoping it goes well, which in 90% of times doesnt.
My mental can already start going down, even before the game begins, like if Im forced to play a role I dont really like, this for me being initiator or if my main gets instalocked. Already at this my mental is already going down, then when we get ingame I'll just play worse, prob from my mental already being bad from agent select, then when I see my score is like 1/5 or something, I'll just mentally give up.

I still want to belive that the game is still winnable, most if not all times it is, but I just cant get myself to belive that the game is winnable, its like I've unconsciously already made my mind up, on how the game is going to end, which is in a lose. I dont think this is both fair for me myself, but most of all I dont think its fair for my teammates, who probably dont even know that I've given up.