I agree,
When you see a sick clutch and the chat goes “OMFG OHHHHH WHATTT SHAO IS INSANEEEE” is just different man.
It’s okay- i also feel the same way when i miss the games sometimes.
I feel your post got categorised into the “Tokyo timing hate” and i don’t think you were talking about that.
It was more “I can’t watch matches live and i don’t feel connected”