I keep having the thing that when i am not able to play Valorant i am really looking forward to the moment when i can finally play and i am really hyped when i can sit to the PC and play some games.
BUT when i actually have the time, i don't feel like playing anymore, i don't even want to start the game. i usually just end up watching some stream and thats the day over. ¨
Does someone have the same thing?
yea, when i was like in immortal 250 points i really enjoyed the calm games with teammates that actually tried
now i dropped to diamond 2 somehow and every third game i get cheater detected match conclude, much often the one guy that flames everyone and FFs or a team that doesnt cooperate and speak at all and die in the first 10 second of the game. This takes my motivation down really and i can't even climb back to mid-high immortal as i was before because of that attitudes in the diamond elos. This might cause the thing that when i realize what happens when i press that Start match button, i don't even want to do that anymore lately.
I play titan fall 2 until I get bored and want the tactical depth of valorant again. Incredible game, sad it failed and that we got apex legends instead of titan fall 3 (despite the fact that apex is a fucking incredible game and the best Battle Royale IMO). Great single player campaign that teaches you mechanics and multiplayer is super fun to do with friends.
Enjoyment? And from multiplayer games you get anxiety because you obviously dont actualy want to play them as you yourself admited you go and watch stream which is procrastinatiin. Procrastination happens when you have to do somth that you dont want to. So it means you raped your brain into believing mp games are good for you and you need to play them because of all the competitive side but all you get is anxiety as you probably are a shit player or if not a shit player you still dont meet the standard you set for yourself. So just go and play some single player woth a good story and enjoy yourself for once
Worst thing in life is to take things seriously that are not worth taking seriously for yourself. Its a generality but when you think about it, it really always comes down to this when you evaluate what you were focusing on. That applies everywhere you can think of. Relations, free time, job situations, etc. Just think if computer game is worth the anxiety of possible loss to the point you avoid playing it.
When I have time, I play, but my friends want to play with me, and it's always the same thing: We 5 stack, we don't focus, I often get carried since my friends are higher ranks than me, and repeat. I also lag due to fucking storms in my area and since its spring, its been happening a lot and i capt play for crap
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